Unlike miss schmartypants, I had a terrible day. I cried, I got a lousy report, got upstaged by my perfect girlfriend, managed to make both her and my mum hate me, spent half my day trying to make it up to my mum by doing other people's chores and being pleasant and just getting ignored or told off, and cut my hand after punching my wardrobe door after tea.
I can't even be properly miserable or pissed off cause I know that everyone else has bigger problems than me. Fuck it
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
My outburst of emotion for the year...
So.
She's gone. You probably already knew that, but she's in Port Lincoln. Just for a few days, but I feel like a part of me is missing already. And I know that unlike some, I'm hardly experienced enough at living without a partner to provide much insight into this, but I know for a fact that I feel different.
While it may not be a few months before I see her again, I feel really lost without her. I noticed in photography today just how quiet and shy I become when she's not around to loosen me up. She really does bring out the best in me.
Without her, I feel hollow somehow. I guess it's because this time I'm worried about her, but all the same, it's unnerving.
That, piled on top of all the homework/exam difficulties I have at the moment is really bringing me down. I feel even worse when I remember that I haven't even got it hard, that her uncle's already died from cancer this year, and now her grandad's dying. DYING. And I'm upset because I suck at homework.
God I'm shallow.
So Erin, if you read this, that's how I feel at the moment.
She's gone. You probably already knew that, but she's in Port Lincoln. Just for a few days, but I feel like a part of me is missing already. And I know that unlike some, I'm hardly experienced enough at living without a partner to provide much insight into this, but I know for a fact that I feel different.
While it may not be a few months before I see her again, I feel really lost without her. I noticed in photography today just how quiet and shy I become when she's not around to loosen me up. She really does bring out the best in me.
Without her, I feel hollow somehow. I guess it's because this time I'm worried about her, but all the same, it's unnerving.
That, piled on top of all the homework/exam difficulties I have at the moment is really bringing me down. I feel even worse when I remember that I haven't even got it hard, that her uncle's already died from cancer this year, and now her grandad's dying. DYING. And I'm upset because I suck at homework.
God I'm shallow.
So Erin, if you read this, that's how I feel at the moment.
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