I hate liars. I hate hypocrites. I hate people who have standards and rules for everybody else, but not for themselves. I hate people studying counselling degrees who treat your life as an experiment, that extra step needed to finish the course.
Traps. Questions that will incriminate you whatever answer you give. Hidden pits in the ground you stand on, filled with the sharp stakes of expectation and disappointment. People who never pay attention to you, unless it's to tell you they want the best for you and that's why they pay so much attention to you. The words that come out of their mouths are just broken mathematical equations, meaningless, against all reason, lies. 2=1, 2=1.
At what point did things change? There was a time when these people were not my allied enemies, when life was not a struggle. Has that hormone finally clicked in me that makes me a teenager, angry with the world and against my family? Or is it real? Has something in my world changed to make others' flaws stand out more easily to me, and my own to everyone else? In my head? Or real? Is there even a difference?
Are my feelings, that confused mess of nouns, justifiable? Or am I underwater, unable to see things clearly, inhibiting my ability to respond correctly?
Is it their fault or mine?