So.
She's gone. You probably already knew that, but she's in Port Lincoln. Just for a few days, but I feel like a part of me is missing already. And I know that unlike some, I'm hardly experienced enough at living without a partner to provide much insight into this, but I know for a fact that I feel different.
While it may not be a few months before I see her again, I feel really lost without her. I noticed in photography today just how quiet and shy I become when she's not around to loosen me up. She really does bring out the best in me.
Without her, I feel hollow somehow. I guess it's because this time I'm worried about her, but all the same, it's unnerving.
That, piled on top of all the homework/exam difficulties I have at the moment is really bringing me down. I feel even worse when I remember that I haven't even got it hard, that her uncle's already died from cancer this year, and now her grandad's dying. DYING. And I'm upset because I suck at homework.
God I'm shallow.
So Erin, if you read this, that's how I feel at the moment.
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i know how you feel... just... different... lol... you'll be okay, you've got us til she comes back. at least she's coming back.
ReplyDeleteYeah I know, and that's what makes me feel so bad. That things are much harder for you...
ReplyDeletemaybe. maybe not. i mean, long term, sure. but still... right now, i can understand. its hard. we both know that. but she's coming back. so you will be okay. and even though it feels hard and everrythign turns to crap when she's not there, you have to keep reminding yourself that she is coming back. you have to keep reminding yourself that its not forever. believe me, you have to keep reminding yourself that everything isn't doomed, that everything will be back to normal, whether soon or some day long in the future, that while it seems hard at the moment everything will be okay.
ReplyDeleteMy problem is small compared to yours...
ReplyDeletethats not the point.
ReplyDeleteIt sorta is
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