Don't let me scroll down...

...or even look at old posts. I am just writing this post so that it will now occupy the top of my page and stop me from looking at posts that I would now much rather forget. I don't care if anyone reads this, I just need to stop myself from thinking about how much my life has gone down the tubes, so I'm filling up this blog with stuff that isn't related to this whole catastrophe.

-sighs-

Confused

Happy non-two year anniversary, my love.

 

Everyone thinks I should just let you go so you can be happy, but I still love you and miss you and you said you still love me, so I don't know what to do.

 

I'm hurt and confused and lonely.

 

You were always the remedy to my pain, but this time you don't want to make me feel better.

 

I miss you. I loved everything about you. To me, you are perfection.

 

Now I have to live without you.

 

But I still love you, Muffy. So much that it hurts.