Guten Morgen

I am writing this from Nürnberg, Germany. I have not got much time to write, as I am using an internet cafe computer, and I cannot upload any pictures at the moment, but I just wanted to say I am safe and sound and enjoying my holiday so far. I will try and keep this page updated with all my travels as I go.

At last...

At last, I'm going away. I've been hoping for this moment to come ever since she dumped me. For the next two months I do not have to be scared of going out in public in case I see either of them, nor do I have to live my life inside my head over and over again.

It'll be so nice to get away from my life. It's been going nowhere since she dumped me. That's not to say I don't miss her, because I do, intensely so, but it'll be nice to go to the other side of the world where I can be me and not that guy that Lauren dumped so she could go out with someone else.

And with any luck, I'll be able to fill up this very sad site with some pictures of my travels.

Stay in touch with this blog.

Enough

It's a word that bounces around my head a lot. I wasn't good enough for you. I didn't do enough to show you how much I love you.

I've had enough. I love you, and it hurts.

I just want to forget.

Don't let me scroll down...

...or even look at old posts. I am just writing this post so that it will now occupy the top of my page and stop me from looking at posts that I would now much rather forget. I don't care if anyone reads this, I just need to stop myself from thinking about how much my life has gone down the tubes, so I'm filling up this blog with stuff that isn't related to this whole catastrophe.

-sighs-

Confused

Happy non-two year anniversary, my love.

 

Everyone thinks I should just let you go so you can be happy, but I still love you and miss you and you said you still love me, so I don't know what to do.

 

I'm hurt and confused and lonely.

 

You were always the remedy to my pain, but this time you don't want to make me feel better.

 

I miss you. I loved everything about you. To me, you are perfection.

 

Now I have to live without you.

 

But I still love you, Muffy. So much that it hurts.

Pain

Muffy...

Impossible

I can't do this anymore. I need you back...

Nightmare

I wish this was all just a bad dream...

I love you.

Top 5 Awesome Songs

If you appreciate good musicianship and have my taste in music, then check these out:

 

1. La Villa Strangiato - Rush, Hemispheres

2. Freewill - Rush, Permanent Waves

3. Sultans of Swing - Dire Straits, Alchemy

4. Catch the Rainbow - Rainbow, On Stage

5. Space Truckin' - Deep Purple, Made in Japan (hard to choose this one cause the whole album is amazing)

 

Of course, really all five should be Rush but I thought I'd allow some diversity =D