Mr. Idiot

Unlike miss schmartypants, I had a terrible day. I cried, I got a lousy report, got upstaged by my perfect girlfriend, managed to make both her and my mum hate me, spent half my day trying to make it up to my mum by doing other people's chores and being pleasant and just getting ignored or told off, and cut my hand after punching my wardrobe door after tea.

I can't even be properly miserable or pissed off cause I know that everyone else has bigger problems than me. Fuck it

Losing the will to live...

I hate homework. I hate revising even more. It's even worse when your homework is to revise.

But what I hate most of all is my complete inability to focus in time of need. I can't revise my poetry for more than five minutes at a time before I mentally fall asleep and give up. And I have two exams on it in as many weeks.

Quite simply, I'm going to fail.

I hate myself

I fail so bad. I screwed up everything with Lauren and it's all my fault and I want to curl up in a ball and die.

I am such a self-centred asshole.

I feel terrible

I have compiled a list of all the things wrong with me at the moment:

Stomach cramps/general sickness
Runny nose
Watery eyes
Dry skin
Cracked lips
A pimple on my lip
Acne in the back of my knees
A blood blister on my little finger
Eczema on my wrists, neck elbows and legs
Dead skin on my foot
Exhaustion
A complete lack of motivation to do work

I fail